#Blue and Happy at the same time ..~

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Fade in and out of reason to fight the way she's feelin'

She breaks down - breaks down

Going through the motions and holding onto hopes

and her dreams now - somehow

Shaken, mistaken, forsaken, it's killing me.

Wishing you could change, but he's always been this way

If you leave now - I'll drown

Will you, will you love me tomorrow?

So Will You, Will you stay with me today?

Will you, will you be here tomorrow?

So Will You, you remember yesterday?

And if you're listening, I miss you.
And if you hear me now, I need you.
Where did you go, 'cause you're not gone.
Everyone knows there's something's wrong.
The wires are cut, and I'm alone

I know we're getting closer.
I know you're coming back for me this time.
This time.

And do you ever want me, do you ever need me?
I know that you left before goodbye.
It's okay, there's always another day.
And anytime you want me, anytime you see me
I don't think you meant to say goodbye
But it's okay, there's always another day.

Your voice comes in and now it's fading.
I can't believe this is so frustrating.
'Cause you never seem to understand
And you let me slip straight through your hands
How does it feel to be alone?

I know we're getting closer.
I know you're coming back for me this time.
This time.
And do you ever want me, do you ever need me?
I know that you left before goodbye.
It's okay, there's always another day.
And anytime you want me, anytime you see me
I don't think you meant to say goodbye
But it's okay, there's always another day.

 
If you ever find what you were looking for.
I will be waiting there.
I will be there.

And do you ever want me, do you ever need me?
I know that you left before goodbye.
It's okay, there's always another day.
And anytime you want me, anytime you see me
I don't think you meant to say goodbye
But it's okay, there's always another day.

No he dejado de extrañarte, en mi mente siempre estas
Es inutil olvidarte, sin ti ya nada es igual
Y el vacio en mi interior, solo crece absorbiendo el dolor
Como duele decir Adios

Hoy vas con rumbo hacia ningun lugar
Y te puedo encontrar
Brillando en el cielo cuando el sol no esta
En noches sin final
Me pierdo, y el tiempo que pasa en silencio
Me recuerda que soy yo quien muere
Al momento en que te vas

Y tengo que confesar que extraño tu forma de hablar
Que las noches son mas frias en la cruda soledad
Que tu ausencia me envenena el alma, duele respirar
Sabiendo que ya no estas

Hoy vas con rumbo hacia ningun lugar
Y te puedo encontrar
Brillando en el cielo cuando el sol no esta
En noches sin final
Me pierdo, y el tiempo que pasa en silencio
Me recuerda que soy yo quien muere
Al momento en que te vas

When I'm lying in your bed
Play the motions through my head
You know that I'm thinking, I'm thinking...
And I have reasons to believe that
I'm not the only one you spend this time with, but I'll stay...

You say, you're weak,
You won't let me down,
You won't let me down.
You lie through your teeth,
You smile in your sleep,
You smile in your sleep.

When we met
You said we were the same,
You know that we're different, we're different,
And all the times you promised me that
Everything would work out in the end, you were gravely mistaken

You say, you're weak,
You won't let me down,
You won't let me down.
You lie through your teeth,
You smile in your sleep,
You smile in your sleep.

You lie, you lie, you lie, you lie
You lie through your teeth
You won't let me down,
You lie, I deserve better than this

I dream of steel. Maroon and warm,
Your end (your end), your end (your end)
You gasp for air.
I'll see this through, I'll see through you,
Your pale (your pale), your pale (your pale),
Your pale blue eyes.

When you're lying in your bed,
Your eulogy's been read
You know that it's fitting, you lie.

You say, you're weak,
You won't let me down,
You won't let me down.
You lie through your teeth,
You smile in your sleep,
You smile in your sleep.

You smile, you smile, you smile, you smile
I deserve better than this

#Esperar.. Desesperar .~

Y el tiempo sigue corriendo, y me llena aún más de preguntas... Y yo sigo esperando que regreses, a acabar con ellas .~

"I'm going away for a while, but I'll be back dont try and follow me.. Cuz I'll return as soon as possible.

See I'm trying to find my place, but It might not be here where I feel safe, We all learn to make mistakes."

En éste mundo las mejores cosas estan lejos de uno mismo, ...

... Y lo peor que podemos hacer es creer que nunca las vamos a alcanzar.~

Con un poquito de tiempo y esfuerzo yo sé que lo puedo lograr.. Distancia? No conozco esa palabra.

Where are you...? Where did you go..? And why didnt you say Goodbye...? 

Is there something wrong? ..Have I said something I shouldn't?

I never thought I'd be missing you THIS much.. I never thought I would be needing you this much..

Suddenly I'm afraid..

And there's nothing I can do to make it stop. 

How am I supossed to know where you are?, No one knows anything, no one says anything. Am I the only one losing control? Feeling like something's wrong..?

I'm just hoping wherever you are, you're fine.

I'm missing my lion..

And this is exactly how I felt, when you said "I still love her" .

There was a day, you threw our love a way, and you passed it to someone new.

You wanna stay.., but since you want to play.. I can finally say we're through! .-

I'm holding on your rope, 

Got me ten feet off the ground

I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound

You tell me that you need me 

Then you go and cut me down, but wait

You tell me that you're sorry

Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall 

Take a shot for you

And I need you like a heart needs a beat 

But it's nothin new

I loved you with a fire red-

Now it's turning blue, and you say...

"Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you

But I'm afraid...

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, it's too late

I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

It's too late to apologize, yeah

I said it's too late to apologize, yeah-

I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...

Sorprendido que siga hablando de lo mismo?.. No es sorpresa para mí,.. Sabes lo MUCHO que maquino cuando éste tipo de cosas pasan.. Y cuánto me duele no haber podido cambiarlas para mejor.. Sé que lo mejor es olvidarte, dejar todo lo que alguna vez vivimos atrás..BIEN atrás. Pero no puedo, al menos no así de fácil como debería ser capaz. Se siente demasiado estúpido que incluso habiéndome pedido una disculpa, me sigas lastimando de ésta forma. Y por qué digo que es mejor olvidarte? Pff.. Porque sí, no hay otra opción. De qué me vale seguir perdiendo mi tiempo con alguien que no supo valorarme como debía, y que no fue capaz de reconocer su error hasta que fue tarde.? Se que hay mejores personas que vos, por las cuales si vale la pena derramar lágrimas, golpear las paredes, y sentir que pese a todo, siguen estando junto a uno mismo, porque su orgullo es capaz de hacerse a un lado cuando la amistad vale más que una pelea..o en éste caso sería ..Que vale más que una persona, por la cual me cambiaste sin pensarlo dos veces, sin sentirte mal al respecto,.. Sin siquiera importarte lo mal que me podría hacer, y como llegaría a arruinar todo lo que alguna vez fuimos capaces de levantar.

Hay recuerdos que valen la pena llevarlos con uno mismo por tiempo indeterminado.. Lo nuestro hubiera sido uno de ellos. Pero considerando que ni a vos te importó, se que ahora puedo sacar ese cajón de mi mochila donde tenía todos esos recuerdos guardados, y dejarlos a un lado del camino para no volverlos a ver ni sentir jamás,.. Darle lugar a otro tipo de recuerdos mejores, que me van a acompañar a lo largo de mi vida, y me van a hacer mejor.

Esta vez.. Es tarde para pedir perdón. 

Así como El tiempo cura todo,.. El tiempo puede destrozar todo.

No te confíes en qe el tiempo va a estar de tu lado y te va a ayudar a recuperar lo que perdiste, porque el tiempo corre,  a veces la espera se hace larga, y duele, y ya no quedan fuerzas para seguir.

Esta vuelta el tiempo no jugó a tu favor. Y aunque hubiese preferido que las cosas no terminaran así, tu orgullo nubló tu vista y terminó con un final que nunca hubieramos imaginado. "Egoísta" es la única palabra que se me ocurre cuando pienso en vos. Y pensar que te esmeraste tanto en hacerme creer a mí que el egoísmo era únicamente algo mío.

Es gracioso ver como se da vuelta todo. Y que feo se siente saber que uno tiene que pasar por cosas "Grosas" para darse cuenta de que estuvo mal, por haber sido incapaz de abrir los ojos cuando tuviste la oportunidad.

Duele.. Pero puedo soportarlo, como soporté muchas cosas.

"Gracias a vos", hoy sigo luchando, sigo haciendome fuerte, sigo aprendiendo a vivir y a cuidarme de la gente.